26 Dec 2008  ::  Sideways
I'm approaching another year of lateral movement. Everything stays the same, regardless of what I accomplish or manage to do.

Christmas was pretty good this year, but I spent the day feeling miserable. I expect I am at least a little unfair to myself, given the circumstances. I can see my footsteps, sometimes, and see the path I've taken, but I can't see over the next hill. Could be the unfurling of something good, or it could be another switchback.

A stutter step forward, reeling back. Never getting to the place I wanted. Sideways movement is killing me. I already wish 2009 was over with.

Welcome to the club. Your membership card and magic decoder ring are in the mail.

Its not that I want life to be easy; I expect it to be hard. It would be nice if it were just a little easier, is all.

Comment added on 26 Dec 2008 by Patrick